Trigger warning: self-harm mention, depictions of violence
“Get out of our way, weirdo!” they shouted,
I felt like I was being crushed under a mountain,
My heart pounded in my chest, tears came next,
I felt lonely, fallen and devastated.
They took my specs, flinging it to the ground,
All my tears melted their words into the background,
I hadn’t the will to walk another mile,
Their chains of words bound me to the soil.
The end. Those words resounded in my mind,
So with blood and a little hurt, I would not be confined,
In the barriers of their words- no longer a loner too,
No longer being stung by words, punches and shoes.
So that night, when the stars glowed,
“Weirdo!” in my ears was what echoed,
The night sky sneered at me,
It seemed to resonate, “Fatty! Fatty!”
The horizon was caliginous, like my soul,
If only someone said a few words to console,
If someone had said to me that I was not-
‘Weird, lunatic and lost.’
That I was more than a lock without a key,
That slitting open my wrists wouldn’t set me free.
If you all had told me a day before yesterday,
Like you did today, in hospital, where I lay,
That being so wonderful was not a crime I committed,
That a ‘nerd’ is not dim-witted,
That you might think I’m weird, but that does not define me,
That I was a slave of your words but could always be free.
However hard I tried, I couldn’t become one of you,
Because I was weird and wonderful, all through.
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Poem by Tanvi Nagar.
Tanvi Nagar is a student of class 11 at Delhi Public School, Gurgaon. She has been writing for the past eight years and is passionate about public speaking, travelling, playing sports and reading. She has contributed to national newspapers like ‘The Times of India’ and ‘Hindustan Times’; magazines like the ‘Neev Magazine’ ‘Cathartic Youth Literary Magazine’ and ‘Children’s World’ and anthologies like ‘The Last Flower of Spring’ and ‘Riding on a Summer Train’ by Delhi Poetry Slam; ‘The Great Indian Anthology’ by Half Baked Beans and ‘She the Shakti’ by Authors Press. She is the Editor in her school and has authored three books titled, ‘A Treasure Trove of Poetic Wonderland’ ‘A Bountiful of Rhythmic Stories’ and ‘My Book of Short Stories and Poems’ and two research papers which were published in the International Journal of Multidisciplinary Educational Research.