|[Image description: A watercolour of me on a bus, the left side depicting yellow/red leaves through the bus window and the right side depicting blue/grey, captioned: “‘tis the season to be depressed”.]|
By Amelia A J Foy
When the sun starts to set at 4:30PM, it can really have an effect on our moods. For those who are already depressed or who experience Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), this feeling runs a lot deeper - the lack of daylight makes us feel heavier, slower, less full of life. (It is important to note SAD can also occur in the summer months for some people, but it is most common in winter).
I wrote the following poem on a bus ride to University through the city centre, when the sun was still out and the trees were yellow and I could physically feel my mood lift. I wrote it to remember the snapshot moments of this season where, in spite of everything, I remember that I’ll be okay.
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sweet autumn sunshine
tastes like honey on my skin
falls like syrup from these lips
into the palms of winter hands
my weather has turned cold
how it does this time of year
grey winds circle the
rain puddles in my chest
the icy nerves in my fingertips
burn in the bus window sun
but the reds and oranges and purples
manage to paint this town in gold
make this body feel like home
for a few short daylight hours
the river catches warmth in
slow brewed ripples
and the water makes this cold city
the sky is blue and this heart is grey
but sometimes on these bus rides
i remember i’m okay
If you or someone you know is affected by seasonal depression, or you think they might be, here are a few useful links:
If you feel you can’t cope or someone you know isn’t coping, please seek help from a doctor, counsellor, friends and family. You are not alone.